Is there something FxXking Wrong w/ ME?

If I could be a hero....I'd wanna be Wonder Woman!!!!!

why??? BC she's a bad chick....All I know is that I was playing some video game on XBOX, I can't think of the name right now...but I was whoopin BE-HIND! Of course I didn't know what buttons I was pressin, but my combos were sickkkk somehow. However, I'm not sure of all of her powers so let's browse the net for a glance.

Wonder Woman's powers: (dcanimated.wikia.com)

Diana was "blessed by the gods" with amazing speed and strength. She also possessed the power of flight, silver bracelets that can deflect all sorts of projectiles, and an indestructible golden lasso. She wears "armor" created by the Greek god Hephaestus. Initially, the armor was taken by Diana without permission. While going to reseat Hades on his throne in the underworld Diana's mother, Hippolyta, "unlocked" the armor and said that Wonder Woman would understand the full powers of it in time.
Wonder Woman provided additional muscle to the Justice League lineup, besides Superman. In addition, she was adept at providing cover for her allies, utilizing her "bullets and bracelets" routine to deflect artillery fire, lasers, and Green Lantern-style energy beams and constructs.[2] Also of note was her golden lasso, which has proven useful in the seizure of weapons,[3] the restraining of opponents,[4] and even the redirecting of missiles.[5]
Diana's golden lasso also contained the power of discerning the truth.

rollin, rollin, rollin, and i ain't slept in weeks.

New beginnings don't come often to me, so buckle up as i take u on my past adventure. So this weekend I was with my numero uno chico L5 like usual...and accompanied by my boy Freaky Leaky...on Fridizzay we watched Friday. What up Craig...What up Smokey?!?! lmao...CLASSIC the way i like my Vans. Others were there...A.Austin was cakin to Swags Kreation...Mar just popped outta nowhere, and Kandekai quoted the entire movie lol. GOOD TIMeS shaw.

Now onto to the moment of truth...I think I've found a part of me I've always been confused about. I used to ponder about what I mean to the world. And the answer I seemed to always stick with is to make people happy...u know to keep the world runnin' w/ my smile. Yeah i know...that tastes like a spoonful of bullshit...but forreal lol. ANywho...I feel like i have a more meaningful purpose ever since Sat-day. So what actually went down on Sat-day u ask. I went to church...ON A SATURDAY?!?! yes fool, on a saturday. Seventh-Day Adventists attend iglesia on Sat-days aka SABBATH. Anywho...this was my first time attending Berean and my 1st at a 7th Day Adv. I admired the service the entire time and the choir caught my attention---it was just beautiful. The preacher was just awesome. Everything he was sayin related to me, and at that point in time i zoned out. I felt something come over me---the wildest thing I've ever felt. When he was callin ppl down to the altar, my palms began to sweat...my heart wouldn't stop throbbin, i couldn't hear myself think---all i saw was a bunch of ppl around me not knowing what this thing was i was feeling. So without thinkin, I hopped up, grabbed my purse, and walked down the stairs, through a double door, and was on my way to the altar. As soon and I reached the front row I sat down and put my face in my hands in my palms and started crying. I felt like I had been lost until that moment. I joined the church. It took ONE visit...Killa is a Seventh Day Adventist. Thanks for the prayer...you know who you are.

The game's sharper than a mothaf***in razor blade.

all eyez on me.

tupac, tupac, tupac...

shakur, shakur, shakur...

i wish u were still alive...

although ppl still claim u live in some Mtns...i kno it ain't Stone Mtn lol.

anyways you and Biggie mean a lot to the state of Hip-Hop and you don't stop.

Ain't nobody everrrrr have passion and rap w/ such intensity and tell stories at the same time.

Yeah, I love Wayne...and Wayne raps w/ hella emotion...he's developed as an artist I must say.

I know i just finished a blog a sec ago...but I'm listening to "all eyez on me" and i can't help but to imagine what the industry would be like if he was still around.

i'll leave it there.

-killa

"make sure your eyes are on the meal ticket, get ya money mothafucka and we'll kick it."

- Tupac

"all eyez on me"

right stroke, left stroke was the best stroke...death stroke???

aye...

i suppose it's a new year...and a new year brings new cheer...supposedly.

It's the 7th day of January, and i'm in the same spot i left off...

is that really bad? could be... who said being complex was easy.

So what happens when Complexity meets a near friend named Adversity?

Well I can name two of many options...Crap can explode in your face and leave u in a worse position than the one u started in...or secondly it can work in your favor.

but...if this is a love situation, who the eff knows what can occur...but that's another story bc I am trying to avoid any future heartaches/808's unless it's Mr. West cuz then I'll stop being so "Paranoid". But if you put me in paranoia  situations...what the EFF do u expect for one to do?

All i know is you live && you learn...that's my motto....

Live w/ no regrets b/c with each bad mistake comes a good assed outcome. 

So since I could care two left feet about New Years Resolutions...I think you should better yourself when u feel apt to. Bc how many actually live up to it anyways...lol...here go my favorites....

1.) i'm goin to lose weight

translation= i'm not eating mcdonald's for 2 weeks straight

2.) i'm goin to be in a serious relationship

translation= i THINK i want a serious relationship

the list goes on...

the point is...it takes T-I-M-E to accomplish serious goals...you have to be able to assess where you are in life and if that goal is even possible.

Achievable Resolutions

1.) To have a Job

2.) To work on a certain flaw...NOT A HANDFUL...one at a time!

3.) To eat healthier...therefore losing weight won't be a hard reach.

So what will I work on???

THAT BITCH JEALOUSY.

-yes i have decided to name it a bitch...b/c it really effs w/ my noggin. I wanna be strong all the time, but let it come to one dude that i'm seriously feelin and i see hoes jockin...i get intense inside and wanna shoot up the place...BUT WHY?!?!? the answer I don't know. But I feel if you have jealous tendencies... ur "interest" should try their hardest to not allow that to happen. And if that's not the case their not ready for you....So eff what a hater thinks...basically. I'ma be like Rocko and "...do me" b/c at the end of the day, I have myself to look at in the mirror. Live, Laugh, and Love those that do unto you.

    

i've got the winning numbers, how come i haven't hit the lottery?

Today will hopefully be a beautiful day. My best friend, my companion, Erika Gibson who befriended me my freshman year is coming to visit. Me and E have a long history, which is kinda an oxymoron b/c we've only known each other for a year and some months...but if u count all the days we spent together back to back, all the inside jokes, and similarities we share...the time knowing each other is about 10 years lol. That's how I feel me and Mr. Carter are becoming as well. Anyways, my folks are going to meet her baby daughter, Leila upon her arrival. She's absolutely gorgeous! Just a lil summary of whats to come...but umm i'ma get into my blog now...

So...have u ever wanted to run away??? As in run away, I don't mean the type where u leave a sappy note and ur whole fam hires a search team to find ur ass. Cuz that shit is so 5th grade, and sooooo not cool to have ppl u love worry bout u like that. But the running away that I'm talking about is the type where you aren't missing per se...but you've put yourself in a location where as u are missing mentally. Not a bad mental....but a way to free yourself from all things that you would actually consider "running" away from.

Nothing but me and a close friend. No myspace...no facebook...no cellphone...No TECHNOLOGY AT ALL!!!! And no I am not Amish lmao. But nowadays people can not function w/o they're celly, and I just wanna chill and be cool and relax....meet some new ppl, eat some good food, hell prolly smoke some ganja. Just because. Just because I can. Maybe I'll fall in love there and leave that love at that place....maybe I'll never come back. But that I highly doubt. This is random, but football players turn me on as much as dred heads do. Moving on....I think I might save up and consider this vacate....maybe I could just go to every major city...like New York City, Miami, Dallas, San Francisco, Washington D.C....and leave something behind in each fucking city. I think that's what I'll do.

some place like this will suffice...just watching the sunset.

con amor,
killa

Misery don't come to me, shit i'm livin comfortably.

Christmas break has invited me to its lair. And boy has it been a ride. Why u ask? Because time alone equals time to think...to think about absolutely nothing and to think about everything.
I have come to some conclusions though. I love my fam and friends. I have so many people that care about me, my thoughts, beliefs, and passions. Right now, I'm going to thank all of you for that. I'm gonna go thru right quick...

1. Mom & Pops...always there for me.
2. Larce... my friend forever, if i didn't have u this semester idk where i would've been.
3. Mar- always there to talk to, i appreciate it.
4. Arie- best friends...we don't have to talk everyday--but we've got each other's backs.
5. Amber- i kno in highschool we weren't close...but thanks for being my friend...don't know where'd i'd be w/o ur companionship either in Atlanta.
   
6. Jarett- u always know how to make me laugh...love ya.
7. Taz- my lil sis...love her like a sis... holds me down, i got her 2.
8. Sisters(blood)- love you guys so much, you guys always look out for baby sis.
9. Broham- we don't see eye to eye all the time, but the love is there
10. Chi- it's amazing we're still close after all these years...thanx for being there.
11. Aunt Sharon- i actually consider u family, u are the def of fam to me.
12. Erika- not with me in the A, but our blue moon phone calls make my day.
13. Tarrance- glad we're getting closer than ever, ur my boy!
14. Xavier- we're gettin closer too...thanx for the fb chats.
    
15. Crystal- love you...all i can say.
    

So...maybe ur not on the list...that doesn't mean i don't consider u a friend or whatever...but maybe i didn't need u this semester and vice versa. Things happen for a reason and I'm glad these ppl are in my life. It's the holiday season and u should really appreciate those close to u...u never know what the future holds. If u did, would u continue to make mistakes or use the conscience of knowing to ur advantage and prevent the mistakes from occuring? Think about it.

goodnite...
-killa

Follow the Leader.....

hello world.
killa is back again and i'm posting during finals week so u kno i had something on my mind.
This weekend was def a plus...why u ask? BC i went to a concert and saw S. Beezy && Luda....aww man....that shit was so hype. somehow i won some tickets and i decided to take my best friend Larce Carter. We had hella fun forreal....

I'll get back on that a lil later w/ the footage and all a lil while later. But ughhh I just have a lil info to share w/ the world or advice rather. If u wanna play Follow the Leader or be a Fuckin leader and set a trend...make sure ur behind that shit 150%. And this goes for any type of scenario.... If u wanna set a new clothing trend...KILL THAT SHIT....if u have a new lifestyle....LIVE THAT SHIT...this half way shit some of my peers are on is a catastrophe...and this needs to be set straight. Finally, my favorite. If you like someone and you lead them on....FOLLOW THAT SHIT.
Don't just say you like someone to like them, or whatever the reason. If u say something is what it is...PROVE THAT SHIT. Words are little...but they carry a heavy hit. And if you have a close relationship w/ someone they are expecting you to remain true to ur verbage. It's Fuckin' 4:40 in the morning....just finished studyin' but i had to air out nigga.
-killa