i've got the winning numbers, how come i haven't hit the lottery?

Today will hopefully be a beautiful day. My best friend, my companion, Erika Gibson who befriended me my freshman year is coming to visit. Me and E have a long history, which is kinda an oxymoron b/c we've only known each other for a year and some months...but if u count all the days we spent together back to back, all the inside jokes, and similarities we share...the time knowing each other is about 10 years lol. That's how I feel me and Mr. Carter are becoming as well. Anyways, my folks are going to meet her baby daughter, Leila upon her arrival. She's absolutely gorgeous! Just a lil summary of whats to come...but umm i'ma get into my blog now...

So...have u ever wanted to run away??? As in run away, I don't mean the type where u leave a sappy note and ur whole fam hires a search team to find ur ass. Cuz that shit is so 5th grade, and sooooo not cool to have ppl u love worry bout u like that. But the running away that I'm talking about is the type where you aren't missing per se...but you've put yourself in a location where as u are missing mentally. Not a bad mental....but a way to free yourself from all things that you would actually consider "running" away from.

Nothing but me and a close friend. No myspace...no facebook...no cellphone...No TECHNOLOGY AT ALL!!!! And no I am not Amish lmao. But nowadays people can not function w/o they're celly, and I just wanna chill and be cool and relax....meet some new ppl, eat some good food, hell prolly smoke some ganja. Just because. Just because I can. Maybe I'll fall in love there and leave that love at that place....maybe I'll never come back. But that I highly doubt. This is random, but football players turn me on as much as dred heads do. Moving on....I think I might save up and consider this vacate....maybe I could just go to every major city...like New York City, Miami, Dallas, San Francisco, Washington D.C....and leave something behind in each fucking city. I think that's what I'll do.

some place like this will suffice...just watching the sunset.

con amor,
killa

Misery don't come to me, shit i'm livin comfortably.

Christmas break has invited me to its lair. And boy has it been a ride. Why u ask? Because time alone equals time to think...to think about absolutely nothing and to think about everything.
I have come to some conclusions though. I love my fam and friends. I have so many people that care about me, my thoughts, beliefs, and passions. Right now, I'm going to thank all of you for that. I'm gonna go thru right quick...

1. Mom & Pops...always there for me.
2. Larce... my friend forever, if i didn't have u this semester idk where i would've been.
3. Mar- always there to talk to, i appreciate it.
4. Arie- best friends...we don't have to talk everyday--but we've got each other's backs.
5. Amber- i kno in highschool we weren't close...but thanks for being my friend...don't know where'd i'd be w/o ur companionship either in Atlanta.
   
6. Jarett- u always know how to make me laugh...love ya.
7. Taz- my lil sis...love her like a sis... holds me down, i got her 2.
8. Sisters(blood)- love you guys so much, you guys always look out for baby sis.
9. Broham- we don't see eye to eye all the time, but the love is there
10. Chi- it's amazing we're still close after all these years...thanx for being there.
11. Aunt Sharon- i actually consider u family, u are the def of fam to me.
12. Erika- not with me in the A, but our blue moon phone calls make my day.
13. Tarrance- glad we're getting closer than ever, ur my boy!
14. Xavier- we're gettin closer too...thanx for the fb chats.
    
15. Crystal- love you...all i can say.
    

So...maybe ur not on the list...that doesn't mean i don't consider u a friend or whatever...but maybe i didn't need u this semester and vice versa. Things happen for a reason and I'm glad these ppl are in my life. It's the holiday season and u should really appreciate those close to u...u never know what the future holds. If u did, would u continue to make mistakes or use the conscience of knowing to ur advantage and prevent the mistakes from occuring? Think about it.

goodnite...
-killa

Follow the Leader.....

hello world.
killa is back again and i'm posting during finals week so u kno i had something on my mind.
This weekend was def a plus...why u ask? BC i went to a concert and saw S. Beezy && Luda....aww man....that shit was so hype. somehow i won some tickets and i decided to take my best friend Larce Carter. We had hella fun forreal....

I'll get back on that a lil later w/ the footage and all a lil while later. But ughhh I just have a lil info to share w/ the world or advice rather. If u wanna play Follow the Leader or be a Fuckin leader and set a trend...make sure ur behind that shit 150%. And this goes for any type of scenario.... If u wanna set a new clothing trend...KILL THAT SHIT....if u have a new lifestyle....LIVE THAT SHIT...this half way shit some of my peers are on is a catastrophe...and this needs to be set straight. Finally, my favorite. If you like someone and you lead them on....FOLLOW THAT SHIT.
Don't just say you like someone to like them, or whatever the reason. If u say something is what it is...PROVE THAT SHIT. Words are little...but they carry a heavy hit. And if you have a close relationship w/ someone they are expecting you to remain true to ur verbage. It's Fuckin' 4:40 in the morning....just finished studyin' but i had to air out nigga.
-killa