Summer = new agenda, same interests, && new roles to be played.

Let's see...how exactly am i feelin?
Andre 3k walks in the room and replies, "FEELIN GOOD FEELIN GREAT.."
yeah, that just about sums it up.
Anywho, summer has began and so much has already happened that it's hysterical! First of all, I had a job. Yes, past tense was used...HAD a job lol. You see, I was goin around knockin on doors of my fellow Georgians preaching about the environment. I had this job for 2 days...and on the 2nd I decided that I was goin to throw the towel in like Soulja Boy says on "DonK" lol. Bc the day was horrible...i had old hags telling me that Obama kills babies...I had ppl just not wantin to hear a damn thing i was sayin...i was hott over there by Briarcliff...like WTF...i was like they can keep this...BUT YOU KNOW...i had put my best foot forward and was doing whatever had to be done because i was tryin to get that 3k...but fuck em. How bout when i got to the office they called me in for a "DEBRIEF" and these hoes said i'm cool as fuck basically, but they have to let me go....lol...WTF i didn't even get to QUIT before they FIRED ME! so i say FUCK THE ENVIRONMENT, loudly and proudly lol.
The next portion of my life...let's see where do I begin?
well, let's just say i'm making progress in an aspect of my life that has been dominating mostly everything that i do...and i'll leave it at that.

By the way...i think i'm in loveeeeeeeeeeeeeeee again!
;)

Why do we like to hurt so much?

[HELLO WORLD]

Boy what a day I've had....seemed long, but eventful. I did inventory at the sports arena, took a test, did an experiment (i earned $15), made pancakes for me and mag-mag....napped. WOKE UP, cleaned my room, took a shower, washed my hair, straightened my hair, and i forgot that i cooked dinner as well. I just glanced in the right-bottom corner of my laptop, and it's freakin 3:54 a.m. Yikes!...
Well, no class for this dame...nor work...I don't work anymore actually...the spring season is over...but I do need to grind and grind real quick...I'm thinkin I wanna do me. And do me to the fullest. There's this summer job like as an environmentalist, and u earn between $4,000-$6,000. Therefore, I would be set...I could get a place to stay and actually be able to pay for it, as well as my bartending gig I want...then when i return to school I will definitely still working for the vball team...ugh, a beautiful thing!
However, i didn't intend on sharing this much info...I actually wanted to share one of my favorite rock bands with you. I absolutely love PARAMORE!
Tonight, all I've listened to was this paramore playlist that i've favorited on IMEEM that I found over Christmas break...when I tell you I can relate to every song, I am not lying. Hayley, the lead singer, is so fuckin awesome...I had to bust that one out...they're so ill....the chords they play...Hayley's voice is amazinggggggggggg...and guess what? shawty has a gap like me lol =)...oh man, i'd kill to see them in concert. EVERY DAMN SONG....how can you accomplish something like that? Although i'm a hip-hop fiend, I find myself relating more to rock bands...you know? The love cries, the injustices, the pain, the hurt, real-life things from a day-to-day basis...that's me. So, thank you Paramore...i'm listening.

mirror, mirror, on the wall...Who's the fairest of them all?

so I heard that money, power, & respect is the key to life...or maybe the L.O.X. just told me that. Whatever the case maybe I believe it....lol. C.R.E.A.M., you name the game. Life is crazy man, things never cease as long as the globe keeps circlin' round the sun...So maybe the sun is the OFFICIAL "key" to life. SO, Spring is here....just another season. You know how they do...come and go, like dead-beat dads.
On another topic...
today i went to the Cinefest to watch a movie and basically KILL time...I saw "BLINDNESS" well 3/4 of it. IT was weird as hell...but it made me think. What if i was blind?? Would i be concerned about my clothing? My appearance? Who I'm crushin on? Who's crushin on me? Some say life would be easier for some. BUT DAMN sight is a beautiful thing. Being able to see how things work, what the definition of beauty is, the outdoors (although I'm not a fan lol), your loved ones...man the list goes on. All I can say is that Gifts come in all shapes and sizes and most importantly, different packages.
----killaaaaaa

never pay attention to the rumors and what they assume

At times I fret about possible outcomes to any given situation. But as long as I have my damn music and headphones, ain't ish gonna worry me. Ye says I'm paranoid...Pac knows there's nothing I won't do for love, Drake knows I'm the effin best, Brandy knows I wanna be down, Aaliyah co-signs me on bein one in a milli, and Wayne wouldn't care if i was a damn prostitute. So as long as my ears don't fail me (foxy brown) my industry homies have my back...they see the unknown...and I'd like to thank you for that.... When I have my doubts, y'all confirm my faith before ne one else. With ur melodic hooks, crazy punch lines, and verb usage...there's no better way to tell me a story. "Swallow Me" in the words of Esthero...now that's a big ass gulp. But above them all "Sky is the Limit" correct me if I'm wrong. Life is an enigma, and i spend too much of it trying to solve it. What's meant to be will be, take me as i am motherfucka.

music/videos...i am feeling, ooh yes.

So...I don't really watch T.V. that much when I'm on campus...And when I turn the T.V. on it's generally on the channel my roommate's left it on. Which is something with not much substance like 'Bad Girls Club'. However, I made an effort to catch Kid CuDi and Kanye's appearance on 106 and Park about a week or two ago. There, they both released their new videos. Kanye with "Welcome to Heartbreak" and CuDi with "Day N' Nite." So I will leave those here as well as Wayne's latest "Prom Queen" I like this video. For one, he looks ADORABLE and his hair looks sooo good lol. So enjoy!!!

Kid Cudi- Day n Nite

Lil Wayne - Prom Queen [Official Music Video]

Welcome to Heartbreak

Also, this is a bit late...but ughh Drake 'Drizzy' Rogers, yes the yellow kidd that used to play up on DeGrassi lol. His mixtape So Far Gone, I honestly don't think it could've been any better or been released at a better time. Some will say it sounds like 808's...okay maybe a track or two...but damn, give the dude props. "Best I've Ever Had" is freaking genuis..."Uptown"...all of them really. So, if you have not downloaded it, please do yourself the favor!

catch me if you can.

i'm not big on regrets...
in fact that word is almost nonexistent to me. It seems to be an insult actually.
so if i say this don't take offense, i just ran across some thoughts in the last 24.

you ever come across something that once it's past a certain point, there's no turning back?
a horrible place to be, especially if it doesn't end up where u want it. i don't wanna say i regret these events...but DAMN, why me? I'm a wholesome person...and a good person at that. i feel so vulnerable and yucky. i don't like what i'm becoming. i wanna go back to being emotionless and quick...back to the Killa i've always been. i'm crazy, like my mind fuckin has me goin nuts inside. and then it's crazy bc i can feel my damn heartbeat about to explode. this has been happening to me for sometime now. it's like i've never been suicidal none of that/i'm not that type of insane...but shit...i can't take it...i need a vent, i need a way out....

prayer here i come.

I ain't cocky I'm just stating the obvious.

An ode to my bestfriend....
I try to be there for you in all ways possible and I know u try to do the same.
I put you before lots of things I prolly shouldn't, but b/c it's you, it makes it exceptionable.
I love things about you I would normally hate.
I know you're sorry for doing certain things to me.
I apologize for what I've done too.
Sometimes things seem harder than they really are, and half of the time u make things easier.
The other half, you'd rather make me find my way out.
I think about what you're doing when you're not with me wayyyyyyy too much.
Shaw, Bay, L, Shawty Lo Mein, Cho-day-----
I'm here for you no matter what....I'm a woman of my word. I got you.
Things are extremely hard for me....but I know it won't be for long.
You know me too well, you're my other half.
I feel incomplete without you....i apologize.
I know I acted a donkey in the lobby....
I still don't know what came over me, I guess sometimes when u want something so bad, u eventually drive yourself crazy enuff..
I miss you.
I need you.
&&
I LOVE YOU.
LARCE JACKSON MAGNIFICENT CARTER V




me + you= the perfect equal inequality
see you tomorrow, happy vday mister carter.