catch me if you can.

i'm not big on regrets...
in fact that word is almost nonexistent to me. It seems to be an insult actually.
so if i say this don't take offense, i just ran across some thoughts in the last 24.

you ever come across something that once it's past a certain point, there's no turning back?
a horrible place to be, especially if it doesn't end up where u want it. i don't wanna say i regret these events...but DAMN, why me? I'm a wholesome person...and a good person at that. i feel so vulnerable and yucky. i don't like what i'm becoming. i wanna go back to being emotionless and quick...back to the Killa i've always been. i'm crazy, like my mind fuckin has me goin nuts inside. and then it's crazy bc i can feel my damn heartbeat about to explode. this has been happening to me for sometime now. it's like i've never been suicidal none of that/i'm not that type of insane...but shit...i can't take it...i need a vent, i need a way out....

prayer here i come.