Dont get too close you might get burned.

Ugh. That's  how I feel right now like wtf. Ima check your ass as I see needed get over. Certain shit I refuse to put up with and no I'm not backing down. So if that's a problem get the stepping like Martin used to say. I have too much going on with my life to be stressing over a bullshit ass relationship. So just leave me be yo...u not trying to listen to me so I'm done listenin to you. I have no more patience for these dumb, simple niggas who are pussy minded but ain't bout shit. Its a wrap, plus whatever potential I thought was there is clearly nonexistent now. Fuck it.

Happy New Years biatchhhh

<p>2012 is upon us. I read this one article saying that 2011 was a joke, lol which was pretty funny. And how about K. Perry and that guy divorcing right at the brink of 2012 lmao! Atleast they have a fresh start and leaving the baggage behind props to them. Anyway I just wanted to wish the world a Happy New Year and don't get too drunk!

Love,
Miss Chanel
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Yoooo

I miss my damn blog and that's that. I've tried to move on without u, but that was,t working out too well. I love you and I'm back for good.

-100

They say when it rains it pours

I won't  sit here and say I'm a victim. Even though majority of the time I'm  not the one in the wrong. I am completely respectful to my mate until I am disrespected. And then when I snap I'm the one with the attitude? Get the fuck out of here....i don't even know why I fucking do this anymore.  Seriously....and smoking cigarettes kills u in the long run in case u didn't learn that in school lol. Have a great day bc I will.

Mi vida nueva

Like I mentioned e herarlier...I'm 21and the mother to my beautiful daughter Jade Jolie Carter. She was born on January 26, 2011 at Henry Medical Center around midnight. She was only 5'8 lbs. And I couldn't believe she was mine.never in a million years would I have guessed I'd be a mom at 21, but it is what it is and I love her to death.the pictures show  her progression from birth to today.

Blogging

You know what I'm kind of glad that I was assigned to blog for mt homework assignment. Bc there are times when I can't share all of my inner thoughts with people bc they start looming at me crazily. I am quite aware that a lot of things what cine out of  my mouth are random  or just don't make sense to the commoner lol. Well I'm watching Toy Story 3 and it's making me recall  when the first one was mad. The movie was pure genius because as a kid I wondered if my toys ever came to life. On the other hand  the thought  is plain creepy! Like that possessed doll chucky... I always told myself if he ever crossedmy path I would whoop his hieney lol there is just no way a doll is killing me. Lol I'm sorry, I can't go out like that!

Long time no see

IiMy old friend, mr. blog....long time no see. I hate to admit that the only reason I stopped by is because of a homework assignment lol. PLEASE forgive me...it's just that ihardly write anymore it's nothing personal. But we definitely have a lot  of catching up to do. All I'll say is that I'm going  on 22, a mom, and I'm almost done with school.

Transition---Ryan Leslie

So, i've been re-upping on my music...just got ryan leslie's TRANSITION, which is of course some smooth vibes. It's a new year, and idk what's to come, but i do know what i want. All i want is to be settled and to stop being tested. Life is nothing but a test with random breaks to BS around....like why do we have to put in all these years of schooling??? It's a freaking test.....all these circles and runarounds to get to where we hope to be. Crazy right? Like, all i want right now is to know where i'ma be right now so i can get right && know where i'm headed....i wanna fast forward all this debt and school and brokeness...to a world of fortune: which to me is successful career, family, and love. As long as i'm working towards that i'm good...but all these effin forks in the road are driving me nuts...But this is life! Nothing but a bunch of choices intertwined with yes', no's, and maybe so's. Eff it, I'm divin in this bitch head first. See y'all at the finish line.

I'm done...

We aren't on the same page...it sucks but i'm doin me now...u couldn't appreciate the word "we"...so goodnite and hurry up 2010.

Ode to whoever cares.

I can't stress the experiences I've gone through in this year alone. I really can't...it's too much, some memories I wanted to forget and others I'm dying to relive again. Even though, the hurt and pain I could have gone without....I know they will shape me into a stronger woman for my future kiddies. This summer on top of this semester has been rough for me....all circulating around him, my family, and my aspirations. Perhaps, my persona is altered a bit for sure....a colder me. A more cautious me...a fuck you pay you me. I'm ready to see things....I'm ready to do things...i'm finna gather 'round the good stuff, eff a damn Pizza Hut. Y'all ain't feedin me...shoot, I'm hardly feedin myself LOL. I'm just trying to do me...with or without you. You know what to do.

....I can't Miss like Mister

Lemme clear my throat...no really. LOL, i have a minor cold which won't turn major bc my immune system is my left hand man, the right hand position is already taken lol. It's a rainy day, but that's not killing me. I love rainy days bc everyone else hates them lol...and while they're busy moping in the storm I'm bringin sunshine to it, yah digg??

I think Kanye is hilarious...I mean who else would have the audacity to go on stage when not scheduled too? True nigganess...lol.

Besides...Beyonce had the best video of all time!

haha, gotta love it...i

love assholery as long as it ain't dealing w/ me feel me.

Oh yeah on another note, Fall is approaching, and I deff can't wait for the weather and to be surrounded by the pretty leaves and see the trees. I JUST LOVE IT! Anywho, let's go over my fall must haves for myself.

1. A pair of boots (tannish brown)-flat
2. More jeans
3. Versatile sweaters
4. Boots w/ a heel
5. New bag
6. Nice Tat
7. Leather Jacket (specifically this Levi jacket i spotted, but get outta here if you think i'ma post it lol so u can jack my swag)
8. Swangin accesories

i'm talkin lights, camera, action....

ayooo. Truthfully speaking, I feel like my life is a movie...minus the glitz, glamor, and extras to do my stunts for me. Therefore, I get all the bruises and broken legs during my action scenes, boy do those actors have it made lol. Anywho, I started my 5th semester of college, ain't nothin but another year smothered w/ BS. I know people say money isn't everything, but it sure seems that way to me...eff what those philanthropists yapp about. I'm gettin hungry for dough...pillsbury should endorse me...but um. My life...well this past year, oh boy. Some say I changed...Some say I'm the same...some ain't say a damn damn. But ugh...let's just say I've gone through life changing experiences...some I would love to forget, but I know I never could; and others I love to remember. Between love and money...(The Dream) I'd say these past 10 months have been rollercoaster-like. All I know is I'm hungry to grasp my future in my palms...like I just wanna fast forward this part right now...so...

Over the summer the padres and me were constantly beefin...and for awhile things will never be the same...I know that for sure....Other relationships have gotten closer, and some a lil more distant than before. But don't be mad at me...I needed "ME" time, to discover what I want/need/and time to evaluate how things were working in my life. And if u can't accept that, fuck it...if u can't get over it. There's much to say, but not to much I feel to spill. I'm the same 'ol G, w/ some acquired knowledge and a few lbz. lighter lol. yeah ya girl's kinda slim now..well slimmer than before. Write ya later.

Everyday is Valentine...Everyday is Christmas.

uh hum.
it's june 10th, happy bday cuzzo...shawty is 21. and i'll be damn 20 on the 13th...ain't that crazy. I've been alive for 20 years! I'm so ready for my life to get on and poppin. I don't like this in between/interferance stuff right now. If ur meant to be in my life be there and act like it, so i can easily maneuver to my good life already got damn. Cuz ur just makin it harder for me to get there the way i see it. sometimes the way i think and the way i process things i wonder if i'm from a diff planet. Like am i seriously on a diff mindset than you? like somethings that are self-explanatory to me may be so foreign to the next...it's fun trying to understand it, but it's starting to urk the fuck outta me. Can't u just please me the way i want you too?...oh yeah bitches, i'm starting to realize the true selves of u individuals. so be my guest and keep showing those colors so i can paint y'all outta my life with ease. i'm a good individual i feel....i just wanna succeed... that's that kobe in me...defense doesn't exist to me, and a double-team is quite flattering. come get it when u ready for it, cuz frankyly i don't think u are.

Summer = new agenda, same interests, && new roles to be played.

Let's see...how exactly am i feelin?
Andre 3k walks in the room and replies, "FEELIN GOOD FEELIN GREAT.."
yeah, that just about sums it up.
Anywho, summer has began and so much has already happened that it's hysterical! First of all, I had a job. Yes, past tense was used...HAD a job lol. You see, I was goin around knockin on doors of my fellow Georgians preaching about the environment. I had this job for 2 days...and on the 2nd I decided that I was goin to throw the towel in like Soulja Boy says on "DonK" lol. Bc the day was horrible...i had old hags telling me that Obama kills babies...I had ppl just not wantin to hear a damn thing i was sayin...i was hott over there by Briarcliff...like WTF...i was like they can keep this...BUT YOU KNOW...i had put my best foot forward and was doing whatever had to be done because i was tryin to get that 3k...but fuck em. How bout when i got to the office they called me in for a "DEBRIEF" and these hoes said i'm cool as fuck basically, but they have to let me go....lol...WTF i didn't even get to QUIT before they FIRED ME! so i say FUCK THE ENVIRONMENT, loudly and proudly lol.
The next portion of my life...let's see where do I begin?
well, let's just say i'm making progress in an aspect of my life that has been dominating mostly everything that i do...and i'll leave it at that.

By the way...i think i'm in loveeeeeeeeeeeeeeee again!
;)

Why do we like to hurt so much?

[HELLO WORLD]

Boy what a day I've had....seemed long, but eventful. I did inventory at the sports arena, took a test, did an experiment (i earned $15), made pancakes for me and mag-mag....napped. WOKE UP, cleaned my room, took a shower, washed my hair, straightened my hair, and i forgot that i cooked dinner as well. I just glanced in the right-bottom corner of my laptop, and it's freakin 3:54 a.m. Yikes!...
Well, no class for this dame...nor work...I don't work anymore actually...the spring season is over...but I do need to grind and grind real quick...I'm thinkin I wanna do me. And do me to the fullest. There's this summer job like as an environmentalist, and u earn between $4,000-$6,000. Therefore, I would be set...I could get a place to stay and actually be able to pay for it, as well as my bartending gig I want...then when i return to school I will definitely still working for the vball team...ugh, a beautiful thing!
However, i didn't intend on sharing this much info...I actually wanted to share one of my favorite rock bands with you. I absolutely love PARAMORE!
Tonight, all I've listened to was this paramore playlist that i've favorited on IMEEM that I found over Christmas break...when I tell you I can relate to every song, I am not lying. Hayley, the lead singer, is so fuckin awesome...I had to bust that one out...they're so ill....the chords they play...Hayley's voice is amazinggggggggggg...and guess what? shawty has a gap like me lol =)...oh man, i'd kill to see them in concert. EVERY DAMN SONG....how can you accomplish something like that? Although i'm a hip-hop fiend, I find myself relating more to rock bands...you know? The love cries, the injustices, the pain, the hurt, real-life things from a day-to-day basis...that's me. So, thank you Paramore...i'm listening.

mirror, mirror, on the wall...Who's the fairest of them all?

so I heard that money, power, & respect is the key to life...or maybe the L.O.X. just told me that. Whatever the case maybe I believe it....lol. C.R.E.A.M., you name the game. Life is crazy man, things never cease as long as the globe keeps circlin' round the sun...So maybe the sun is the OFFICIAL "key" to life. SO, Spring is here....just another season. You know how they do...come and go, like dead-beat dads.
On another topic...
today i went to the Cinefest to watch a movie and basically KILL time...I saw "BLINDNESS" well 3/4 of it. IT was weird as hell...but it made me think. What if i was blind?? Would i be concerned about my clothing? My appearance? Who I'm crushin on? Who's crushin on me? Some say life would be easier for some. BUT DAMN sight is a beautiful thing. Being able to see how things work, what the definition of beauty is, the outdoors (although I'm not a fan lol), your loved ones...man the list goes on. All I can say is that Gifts come in all shapes and sizes and most importantly, different packages.
----killaaaaaa

never pay attention to the rumors and what they assume

At times I fret about possible outcomes to any given situation. But as long as I have my damn music and headphones, ain't ish gonna worry me. Ye says I'm paranoid...Pac knows there's nothing I won't do for love, Drake knows I'm the effin best, Brandy knows I wanna be down, Aaliyah co-signs me on bein one in a milli, and Wayne wouldn't care if i was a damn prostitute. So as long as my ears don't fail me (foxy brown) my industry homies have my back...they see the unknown...and I'd like to thank you for that.... When I have my doubts, y'all confirm my faith before ne one else. With ur melodic hooks, crazy punch lines, and verb usage...there's no better way to tell me a story. "Swallow Me" in the words of Esthero...now that's a big ass gulp. But above them all "Sky is the Limit" correct me if I'm wrong. Life is an enigma, and i spend too much of it trying to solve it. What's meant to be will be, take me as i am motherfucka.

music/videos...i am feeling, ooh yes.

So...I don't really watch T.V. that much when I'm on campus...And when I turn the T.V. on it's generally on the channel my roommate's left it on. Which is something with not much substance like 'Bad Girls Club'. However, I made an effort to catch Kid CuDi and Kanye's appearance on 106 and Park about a week or two ago. There, they both released their new videos. Kanye with "Welcome to Heartbreak" and CuDi with "Day N' Nite." So I will leave those here as well as Wayne's latest "Prom Queen" I like this video. For one, he looks ADORABLE and his hair looks sooo good lol. So enjoy!!!

Kid Cudi- Day n Nite

Lil Wayne - Prom Queen [Official Music Video]

Welcome to Heartbreak

Also, this is a bit late...but ughh Drake 'Drizzy' Rogers, yes the yellow kidd that used to play up on DeGrassi lol. His mixtape So Far Gone, I honestly don't think it could've been any better or been released at a better time. Some will say it sounds like 808's...okay maybe a track or two...but damn, give the dude props. "Best I've Ever Had" is freaking genuis..."Uptown"...all of them really. So, if you have not downloaded it, please do yourself the favor!

catch me if you can.

i'm not big on regrets...
in fact that word is almost nonexistent to me. It seems to be an insult actually.
so if i say this don't take offense, i just ran across some thoughts in the last 24.

you ever come across something that once it's past a certain point, there's no turning back?
a horrible place to be, especially if it doesn't end up where u want it. i don't wanna say i regret these events...but DAMN, why me? I'm a wholesome person...and a good person at that. i feel so vulnerable and yucky. i don't like what i'm becoming. i wanna go back to being emotionless and quick...back to the Killa i've always been. i'm crazy, like my mind fuckin has me goin nuts inside. and then it's crazy bc i can feel my damn heartbeat about to explode. this has been happening to me for sometime now. it's like i've never been suicidal none of that/i'm not that type of insane...but shit...i can't take it...i need a vent, i need a way out....

prayer here i come.

I ain't cocky I'm just stating the obvious.

An ode to my bestfriend....
I try to be there for you in all ways possible and I know u try to do the same.
I put you before lots of things I prolly shouldn't, but b/c it's you, it makes it exceptionable.
I love things about you I would normally hate.
I know you're sorry for doing certain things to me.
I apologize for what I've done too.
Sometimes things seem harder than they really are, and half of the time u make things easier.
The other half, you'd rather make me find my way out.
I think about what you're doing when you're not with me wayyyyyyy too much.
Shaw, Bay, L, Shawty Lo Mein, Cho-day-----
I'm here for you no matter what....I'm a woman of my word. I got you.
Things are extremely hard for me....but I know it won't be for long.
You know me too well, you're my other half.
I feel incomplete without you....i apologize.
I know I acted a donkey in the lobby....
I still don't know what came over me, I guess sometimes when u want something so bad, u eventually drive yourself crazy enuff..
I miss you.
I need you.
&&
I LOVE YOU.
LARCE JACKSON MAGNIFICENT CARTER V




me + you= the perfect equal inequality
see you tomorrow, happy vday mister carter.